Don't worry, mom, nothing has happened. No one has made fun of my "y'all's" and the church still likes to hear Jason preach and we haven't been attacked by a bear (which could really happen up here!) and the boys really are adjusting wonderfully. No, I'm just homesick. My family and friends, our house, Chick-fil-A,
I'm not trying to throw myself a pity party (o.k., well maybe I am), but this is my life right now. This is the time that I've been dreading. I know I'll be fine (eventually) and I will love living here and have a gaggle of girlfriends to be silly with again. But it's the right now, the weeks-months-years(!), until I get to that point that I hate.
So even though I don't feel happy or thankful or blessed, I know I really am. And to remind myself how great I really do have it, here's my "thankful for" list tonight:
- the moon. Because it's cloudy here so much & the days are so long, I really haven't seen it much.
- Starbucks. I still haven't learned to like coffee yet (sorry Ashley), but since I'm only 5 minutes from one (two actually) and they have FREE WIFI, it gives me a place to be alone & escape to. We still don't have internet & that's been really hard for me.
- the weather. We've had 2-3 days in a row without rain, so it's been really nice. I actually wore shorts today. And everytime someone back home tells me it's 105, I'm reminded how great this weather really is.
- Jesus. That seems like a "Sunday School" answer, but it's not meant to be. I don't "feel" God close to me right now & I don't "love" going to church and I don't "want" to read my Bible, but I KNOW that He hasn't given up on me and that He has a purpose for us here, even though I don't understand it.