|My last picture with Murr|
Like most in this situation, I am overwhelmed with grief. I feel like I can hardly breathe. But at the same time, I am so thankful. Thankful that:
- My grandmother is a Christian. I don't have to worry about where she will spend her eternity. What a blessing!!
- I got to spend three glorious nights with her. We didn't plan our Christmas trip to TN as such, but God did. I got to spend one terrifying night with her at the hospital & 2 nights at hospice with her. She was awake, alert, coherent & talkative with me during some of that time.
- I had 35 wonderful years with her. I know that I am blessed more than most with the time I got to spend with her.
- She died rather quickly. I know she didn't feel like it at the end, but she spent less than 2 weeks in the hospital/hospice, which really is a blink of the eye. She didn't have cancer, Alzheimer's or a dozen other things that so many have faced.
And that's one thing that I've gotten out of this week. I want to be irreplaceable, too. Don't you? I want people to think I was the best mommy, wife, daughter, friend, neighbor, whatever, so that there will never be a replacement. I want to live bigger, be nicer, smile more, be friendlier, more serving, so that my presence will be known to others.
|One of my favorite pictures of my irreplaceable Murr & my mom, spring 2010|
When I asked Murr Sunday night what her favorite Bible verse is, she shared these two with me:
"...in all your ways acknowledge him and he will make your make your paths straight." Proverbs 3:6
"A merry heart doeth good like a medicine: but a broken spirit dries the bones." Proverbs 17:22And, indeed, HER merry heart did just that.