How does all that make me feel? Scared. Uneasy. Nervous. At peace. A close friend recently asked if we really knew what we were doing. Nope. Not even a little. But as much as this move doesn't make sense, I am totally at peace with it.
Remember that wishy-washy, unreliable, akward discipline Peter? I was thinking today of probably his most courageous act during his time with Jesus. During a bad storm, he got out the boat he & the disciples were in & walked out to Jesus. He didn't stick one toe in to test the water or ask the other disciples what they thought he should do or tell Jesus that he needed to know how deep the water was before getting out. He just got out of the boat. He trusted that Jesus would either make him walk on water or keep him from drowning. (If you're not a Christian & would like to read this awesome piece of history, you can look up Matthew 14:22-32 or http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4Q7cLmZY6xM, at about minute 3:00).
That's what I'm hoping to do on this crazy & life-changing adventure we're on. Just step out of the boat in faith. And as I go to sleep tonight (eventually) on our air mattress, I will try to remember this verse:
"Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be terrified; do not be discouraged, for the Lord your God will be with you wherever you go." Joshua 1:9